Its obvious that my focus strays elsewhere at times, and thats what this project is fixing. Its only day #4, I'm sure as the year goes on, I will be able to get my focus in the right place. All these interactions are only helping me, whether I believe it or not.
I realize that if I do meet someone during this time, I will have to hold off and focus on being just friends with him. If he is interested too, I need to make sure that he can hold off as well. When that situation arises, I'll probably shy away, but eventually let him know the deal. I put a ring on my left ring finger to symbolize that I am off the market. I'm doing all that I can to have it written all over my face that I am currently unavailable.
this is rad. the whole idea.
ReplyDeleteif i can give some advice...as a person who was highly ...uhh, lets just say "relationally driven."
if you DO end up finding a guy that you like...which will almost definitely happen...i would HIGHLY recommend not sharing your feelings with him.
if have been in similar situations, and sharing the feeling only creates a bond. which you are trying to avoid. and even if you both agree to 'wait' - you have already committed to a relationship.
i could explain this more, but i dont want to go overboard. i'd be more than happy to chat with you sometime :)
if your goal is to focus on work and school, then the moment you start talking, discussing, or planning a relationship when your year is over will already be taking the focus off of the things you are trying to do. make sense?
in addition to that, one of the reasons we desire to have a relationship is because we are afraid of being alone. so if you talk with some boy and both agree to wait til the year is over, you know that you wont be alone at the end of the year. you have taken things back out of God's hands and put them in your own control. make sense?
i am not trying to be negative, but i can speak from mucho experienco that the heart is deceiving and highly emotional.
i absolutely high five you and am so pumped for this journey you are on. i think it is awesome and will be one of the most incredible and impactful things in your life. it will be easy some days, and incredibly difficult others. some days you will reach the mountain top and succeed, while other days you might fall of a cliff and not do so hot.
regardless...this is an awesome thing, and the journey should always be your focus. not the destination. dont buckle down and suffer through it - keep your head up and observe what is going on! learn about life, others, God, and yourself.
love ya! let me know if there is anything i can do to help!